I’m frickin tired.

I’m tired.

I’m frickin tired.

worn.

stressed.

upset.

I just don’t understand some things.

like.....why God isn’t enough for us?? especially when He’s promised to be more than enough.

I don’t understand how we can trust every other human on this earth, and what they have to say, and not trust the God  who created us or His word.

I don’t understand how we can call ourselves followers of the creator...when we in truth have no idea most of the time what the Bible says or even believe it to be true.

It makes me upset that we get so upset with others over petty things that shouldn’t matter, when what we should be doing is showing the love of our maker, being like him, loving every person no matter what they’ve done or do. Cause we’re still human, we still make mistakes just like everyone else. I hate that for one second I’ve ever thought I was better than anyone else. I’m not.

It’s completely stupid how we are so quick to point fingers at what everyone else does wrong...but are the last to admit the faults in our own lives.

I’m so tired. So tired of forgetting that God is the only thing that I need. So tired of putting Him last in my life.

I’m so tired of living for other people. Pleasing them and making them happy, while i’m making myself miserable.

I’m tired of trying to make everyone happy and making sure that their every dream comes true...and forgetting about my own dreams.

I’m tired of people looking at me and putting me in a box of what they think I am. If only you knew.

I’m just ready to live life. Ready to live for myself. Don’t get me wrong I want to live for God...that’s a huge priority in my life. But I know that in order to do that I have to love myself. I have to put the focus back on what I’m supposed to do and be.

I just want to enjoy life while I can.

To love without compromising who I am and what I want in life.

I’m  done with living for everyone else. Done with pleasing everyone else. That life makes me miserable. I just want it to be me and God and no one else. I don’t need anything else.

I have a lot more to say, but i’m tired and I can’t think straight. I’m losing my train of thought. more to come soon.