I’m trying. trying.

I’m tired.
Worn out, stressed.
Cause right now, things aren’t going the best.

I’m falling, tripping stumbling,
through a life of lies that’s slowly crumbling.
trying my best to please them
yet inside i’m dying to just breath in.

Losing it.
to something I never wanted.
I love deeply.
so that I always feel it when they leave me.
Hurting myself...the only way to see if I’m still alive.

why do I do this.
why can’t I just give up on them
just live a lie
at night I lay here to cry.

I can’t stop loving.
can’t stop caring.
I wish you knew that.

I wish you could see that inside i’m dying
cause it hurts me to see you crying.
I just want to live without lying.
look deep. I’m trying. trying.

the hardest thing is to let go.
to give you away.
to move on.
let love come again your way.