You don't even know me....

I'm so tired of rejection. I mean if we're honest I don't think there is one person who likes rejection. So why  are we so quick to reject each other? Why is it so easy to just disregard someone or to look over someone than to say something nice or to take a moment for a person. I know I am most definitely guilty of doing this.....and I feel horrible knowing that i have made some people feel like I do right now. 

We live in such a hard, torn, and broken world. Where everyone wants someone to just love them and acknowledge that they exist. At the same time though we won't do the same for someone else. What is wrong with us? We are such a desperate world, such a desperate people. In need of a savior, but looking for it in the wrong places. 

I know I am bound to face many more times of rejection in my life. In finding love, where someone will decide whether or not i'm worth their time and affection.  I definitely expect to face rejection in my career. Just putting myself out there for the world to see, hear, and judge me will most likely bring up people who can't stand me. In everyday life from one person or another......it happens. I guess it can be expected.

I've learned that as hard as it is to take it though, it's so easy to just take it out on someone else by doing the very same thing to them. I could say that I just ignore it, or that it doesn't really bother me, but in truth it does. I care so much about what people think of me, even if i shouldn't care i do. It hurts me so much when people don't give me the time of day. You leave your mark on my heart every time you overlook me. 

Sometimes it makes me wonder what the heck is wrong with me. What could possibly be so wrong with me that you won't talk to me, or even give me the satisfaction of a glance my way. Maybe this sounds childish, but we all know that these thoughts have gone through our heads at one point or another. And there has been a point in each of our lives when we so desired attention from someone and that person ignored it. You can't tell me that that didn't hurt you.....cause I know your sitting here reading this...thinking of that very person. 

 I realized something today though, Rejection can either break you or make you. You can either sit there and wallow in the hurt of it and never try again, or you can realize that this only makes you a stronger person and let it be motivation for you to keep going and to try even harder. 

These are just some of my late night thoughts.....I don't know if any of this actually makes sense. 

You don't even know me
Yet you discard me like you do
Never asking questions
That would lead me closer to you

You were harsh and unfeeling
Never giving me an inch
Not once did you answer me
And your interrogation made me spin

What is it about me
That you won't even give me a second glance
Cause you don't even know me
And now your not even giving me a chance

You don't even know me
And I guess now you never will
Guess there was something about me
That you just couldn't feel

All I wanted was a friend
I just needed a kind word
Maybe a shoulder to lean on
Or a love that understood

Instead you walked away
As I whispered those last words
You don't even know me

Now i'm standing where you stood
And the hurt flows all around me like a flood
I just wanted you to know me
Love me
Need me
Be a friend that understood

Now you'll never know me
Cause you closed the door
And now I'm gone