better off this way.

trying so hard 
not to let things get to me 
choosing to just be happy through it all
it still hurts though 


you said you would never let me go 
but now things are falling apart
i’m slipping away 
you don’t even notice
it’s hard, but maybe we’re better off this way......


you let me go
put your life before me 
so how was i supposed to know
if your love was real


trying to make myself believe
that i don’t care 
that it doesn’t hurt 
but these tears aren’t imaginary 
to you 
in your life...i’m so secondary 


i’m too weak 
to try and put up a fight 
but then again
the things you won’t change for me
i don’t why I might 


blinded so badly 
by what i didn’t want to see 
i shut out everything 
that meant so much to me


i poured so much into you
my heart’s unrecognizably blue 
trying not to harden with lies from you


i believed you could be more 
but had my world shaken to the core 
daydreams i got lost in
until now my eyes were never opened. 


i see your love for what it was 
scared of your solitude aloneness
drowning in your lustful lewdness 
i see you for what you are 


strange how the world can show me that 
funny how i can realize 
what has always been right before these 
fogged over eyes 


i understand why i need this so 
But i don’t know why then
that my heart breaks letting you go. 


unjustified in your actions 
mistaken by spoken words 
lost communication between two worlds
never colliding with reality


we aren’t meant to be 
so just accept that fact 
move on 
get life to move forward on this track 


I don’t want to be alone forever
but then you were the one who said “never”
and here we are 


stuck in something so volatile 
comfort is always in what’s known
but it will never make our lives full

it’s hard, but maybe we’re better off this way......