losing myself

dying inside
these feelings i’ve tried hard to hide
won’t contain themselves any longer
 they’re falling, running free
returning me to life's every misery

can’t tell you what’s wrong
you wouldn’t understand these thoughts
to you they sound so wrong

no i’m not a tortured mind
just never finding my rhythm to the worlds rhyme
a different kind of soul
one that’s desperate for you to find

i’m a mess of broken pieces
lost them all to the bottom of the sea
trying to make sense of all the madness
on a long hard trek to find me

I know i’m breaking you apart
dragging you along on this ride
& hurting you in the process
i can’t let go of my pride

trying to fight a feeling
that i don’t know how to feel
I’m lost inside a nightmare
& confused on which world is real

if you could just stay
chase each bad dream away
love me completely
when i push you away

I get so lost within myself at times
always losing my way
trying to somehow read between lines
 of things my mind & heart say

can’t see where i’m going or who i am
just a drifter losing myself to a foreign land