this is

i've drained myself emotionally
often at night crying myself to sleep
never knowing why i'm this way
always praying happiness will come with the light of day

seeing myself so different so vain
if you looked inside you'd see the pain
secrets and closed doors
tears spilled out on the floor
this is a girl who was looking for something more

this is who i was

lost in knowing myself
scared that who i am will come out
trying to be what isn't me
really just wanting to be set free

masks and disguises my every day wear
this facade is only hiding my despair
wanting to be loved so much
but losing herself to the shyness
 a crutch

A girl afraid of who she is
being real is what loses
happy on the outside
screaming from within
if i could tell you
maybe we would all win

this is who i've been

broken from the lost dreams
still i know what love means
trying again to find you
i didn't know what Your love could do

heart on fire for life once again
i've only had to let you in
living life now for you and me
life is worth living when you've set me free

this is what changed me

sometimes i slip up
sometimes i'm not fine
In those moments you remind me
you hold me up when my life is on the line
when i'm lost you always find me
with love you remind me

In this second i'm so happy
i have so much to live for
i have so much to give
happiness isn't something i could achieve
when i asked you for it
you said just believe

 I'm learning each day
as i need you and i pray
that sometimes life isn't what we wanted
it's what you gave us though
and it's something i'm grateful for
please know

this is what you remind me

Love and laughter are what i want to define me
I hope that these are the things you see
I'm not always perfect
but who could ever be?

running falling
i will pick myself up and run again
cause I want to live a life thats remembered
don't leave me forgotten

dreamer and lover
something i will always be
dreamer of the most impossible things
you make them possible you are the giver of all things
Lover of people and lover of my God
You placed a heart in me overflowing for life

this is who i will be