FRUSTRATION!!!!!!!!!!!!

So today.....wait ok the last few days have been so frustrating for me. I mean like REALLY frustrating.
I guess we've reached that point in our trip where we are tired of rooming with each other, we're running low on funds, we're staying with people that aren't any fun and just want us to sit around in their cramped house and watch there kids! It's all driving me mad!!! I mean I'm not on vacation to watch peoples kids for them so they can be lazy. We're in florida and instead of spending our time on the beach we are spending it cleaning up after people and watching there kids! It makes me so mad......!!! We have reached the point where we can't really afford a hotel for all of us here. Especially since it's spring break! I kinda just want to pack up and go home! Even if it's only 50 degrees at home! WE went to the beach yesterday and today with the same family and all they did was complain! Making me wonder why the heck they came with us in the first place. I'm looking forward to tomorrow though. The Wood family is coming and we are going to spend the day with them. I pray everything goes smoothly and that we have tons of fun! We will I know we will.....our families just get along famously!

I've also been really nervous, scared, and frustrated about moving out from under my parents! It's the biggest thing I've ever done and it's exciting, but also scary for me! I'm looking forward to just being alone and enjoying my life, but at the same time I hate being alone. I'm scared of being by myself and being lonely. Or not being able to find a job with a steady income so i can support myself. I'm trying to place it all in Gods hands......that's always been my weakness though. I struggle so much with fully giving things over to God! I am such a logistical person, always needing to know all the facts and things before I do something. Trying to make sure everything will run smoothly. Honestly now that I think about it I sound kinda stupid. Like i'm trying to play God or something. I hate letting go of the control and letting someone else take the reigns.....even when that person is the creator of the universe!!! I know that He has everything though and ultimately I will be fine because he's holding me in His hands! What better place could I be in then that?
This year and even the past couple of years have been all about stretching and growing. I'm turning into an adult. Errrr.......as much as i'm going against it I have no choice but to give in.

I'm gonna go with the wind........just fly with it. Wash away like the tide...... just roll with it. And like a tornado.....i'm going to leave my mark..........just wait......just watch. I'm coming.