....I didn't fight for you

i'm broken lying shattered on the floor

this burden so heavy

i can't take it anymore

i can only imagine the pain you've been through

everything i thought was just the drama of being you

really it was so much more

you've been bruised, hurt, broken

why wasn't i there before

i carry this pain for you in my heart

as if it was my own

the guilt i feel is so deep

so unrelenting 

i wasn't there for you 

my word i didn't keep

i didn't fight for you

i didn't even try to

i left you all alone 

thinking that you could fight your own battles

selfishly looking only after myself

what I would do to have taken your place

to have been the strong one when you were weak

what i would do to go back and change the past for you

tears flood my heart for you

pain plagues my soul constantly 

such a cruel evil world we live in

people filled with hatred 

inflicting innocents with their cruelty and sin

if i could take every pain for you

if i could only live through what you've been through

if i could carry this weight for you

if I could erase the past and make you new 

but i can't

i can't stop the hurt

can't save you from what is in this world

I can't protect you even though if i could i would

i'm sorry dear one

so very very sorry

i've failed you like never before

i've broken the promise 

and everything i should have stood for

i'm sorry

i'm so so sorry 

the state of my heart

it's ripped open wide

bleeding broken bloodied shattered torn

i'm drowning in these tears

i can't fix it

this is your reality

what you've been drowning in for years

i'm sorry....

i'm sorry....

i'm so sorry...

i should have been there.

it should have been me.

guilt and pain are now what plague me.